#8

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I don't know whats wrong.
everything seems wrong. my heart gets heavy. 
I feel like i can break down anytime (well I did, actually).

Why am I so freaky. Sometimes even I am afraid of myself. Sigh.

I need to set my focus back. It's going into week 3 already. I ignore the forms that need to be submitted. I don't get why there are so many forms like can it just foff. bureaucracies, i hate them, but this world is full of them. Sigh.

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